SnowFlake

Its December,

and she is everywhere.

She looks pretty

in her angel white gown.

She looks royal

with the aura around .
Playing with the wind
aloof and lost in herself.
Led by the drift,
now She is around you.
Smiling n twirling,
You know She brought you the warmth.

Ah!You took her on your hand

now all u r left with, is a teardrop....

Crib Crib Crib....

Warning: lotsa cribbing ahead...

Hate todays day. Looks like I got up from the wrong side of the bed...
It was snowing in the morning. So I decided not to take my car. Then I miss my bus! I end up reaching 1 hr late for work...Clients cribbing, clients acting dumb.... thn few more things..
Wishing tht the day gets over early. I wonder why you have some days whn nothing seems to come your way and you feel bitchy about everything. You get so frust that u want to back answer everyone and wish that you had claws like a cat.
grrrrrrrr..... #@@&%&#&&

One more storm....

Severe weather warning today as well! winds are blowing at amazing speed and that reminds me that I have not yet written anything about the recent snowstrom in Buffalo!
It was the first time that I witnessed anything like this. On 12th October( I was gonna get my car...), around afternoon it started snowing like crazy. Totally untimely snow, as even fall had not started. I was superhappy to see the snow everywhere.
As the trees still had all their leaves on, snow strarted to accumulate on the leaves. The trees could not take tht weight and their branches started breaking. broken branches brought power lines down with thm! Now almost 80% of Buffalo was engulfed in dark....
As 143 Callodine didnt lose power,we were lucky, and so were our 6 friends! The guys (Prasad, Gautam,Manu, Bhole, MPatil and Karthik) were 'The Refugees'! That Thursday night, no bosy thought that they will be @143 for the next whole week!
Friday morning I woke up early cursing under my breath (as always!) as I had to go to work. I looked outta my window and whoa! It was ONLY white outside and it was snowing like hell! We had almost 2 feet snow that day. When the snow got over, we had to shovel the driveway and all the 3-4 cars!
Buffalo spent the whole next week without power. Since we did not lose the power a sinlge day, we were happy. 10 ppl under 1 roof. We had lotsa fun thoughout the week. Candy had joined teh gang at the end.
It took lot of time to get the life of Buffalo back on track. You would see the utility vehicals everywhere, long lines at the gas stations and grocery stores. Most of the ppl lived using generators. It took more than a week to restore the power back. Road clean up work was going on to clear out the branches and tress that had fallen everywhere. We roamed arnd the city for the first 2 days to see the extend of destruction caused and took snaps of it.
Found Buffalo really different from Bombay in this period. The storm broke the spine of the city, so unlike Bombay... Mumbai jst jumps back.
All in all, had lotsa fun during the storm perios, mainly coz we were 'the chosen ones' ;)

"I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived."

Debated with a friend of mine on this. He agrees with it! Well I do'nt......we were not talking abt this things that Margaret Mitchell talkes about in this quote. Well..I don't say that love is not practicle. Lol.

We were talking about decisions and situations in general. I believe that those broken pieces teach you a lot more than the whole piece. The broken edges are the reality. They tell u what went wrong. You can never see the mistakes you are committing in a smooth going situation. You would realize those only when the china is broken. Good that it teaches you a lot. teaches u how to handle the vase. The broken edges would always remind you to not to make the same mistakes again. If you work well on rectifying the mistakes, its worth the work!

zhagdaaaaaaaaaaas!

I could never understand how to resolve an argument. I have realized this that different people have different ways of resolving arguments. Whose way should you go when both the parties have opposite ways of solving those?

Some of my friends prefer talking about it immediately and resolve the issue. I am that way too. Hence, solving arguments with such people is the easiest. You put fwd ur points, they do theirs and you can talk about it.

Some of them would just sulk , get angry at you and keep a grudge. They are the hardest ppl to solve ur issues with. These ppl scare me coz once such people hold their grudges, they wont listen at all. They just clam up about the issue!

Then there is another sect of ppl. They will prefer not talking about the issue at all. They will just ignore the issue, they will ignore you. And this is their solution for the thing! Just run away from confronting the thing, the person. Then after taking their time, they will be fine with you. If u meet and talk to them after tht much ‘time’, they will be like normal with u. These ppl puzzle me….

So whn I have arguments with type#2 or type#3 ppl, I have no clue how I should react. Should I be going my way to resolve the issue or the other person’s? There r arguments when sometimes I go down a guilt trip and so I hv to confront the person and say sorry. At times it works, but sometimes it worsens the situation and thn you have to take another guilt trip. And why should I go the other persons way always….

Weird situations which I seriously hate. Thankfully I don’t have see thm tht often!

Resurrection...

Hmmm...hvnt blogged in ages. Not that I dont get time as such, but still.
Started with my new job. Pretty interesting one. But still I surely have time to blog. I think I hv becoem a lil lazy and hence not doing anything other than goin to work and coming back!
Decided now tht I would go back to my own self. Resurrection, as I call it. I have decided to do the following things:
1) Be more productive on the job
2) Study!!!!
3) Chat less
4) Read more (offline reading i.e.)
5) Write more (offline again!!)
6) Work out (shld be a higher priority) .....feeling lazy to move it up in this list..
7) Be less lazy!!

Hoping for a resurrection..

The Shores

I think my bestest snap till now....Should hv made sm1 sit on one of the benches.

Returnin' Blues....

Only 10 days left to go back to Buffalo! I hate the feeling. :( It feels as if every evenig is laughing at me and telling me "1 day less now!".
After staying with the whole family for almost 1 month, its very difficult to go back to a place where you know not many ppl would be that good with you. Everyone is pampering me so much here.
Last time when I came here, I had a reason to go back. I had not yet completed the degree then. But now I feel "why I am going back? Is going back really worth? My whole family is here in India and work opportunities there are equally good."
But I agree that I should get an experience of US work culture and few senti reasons r holding me back. Its always a compromise between ur loved ones and ur professional life. Life is anyways compromises.
"Its not always rainbows and butterflies but compromises that moves us along....."
I think the I am unnecessarily getting so senti over going back. I know I would be happy there too. Just discussed this with Prasad so I thought I shld post. Its just the blues that r hitting me real bad.
"Thats why they call it the blues.............."

Random Things About Me....

Saw this type of post on Shreyas's blog. So me 2222222222!
Here are few random things about me..not in particular order of weirdness.

1. I think that birthday is the most happenin and exciting day of the year.
2. And bestest b'day party has to have good food.
3. I loooove to sing, but am bad at it....
4. I love to write, but...ahem...
5. I never say no to a coffee.
6. I am still crazy for Steve Waugh.

Gitanjali

Lately while recovering, I have been reading Gitanjali by Tagore. Oh my god! I am totally in love with it!
I had never read anything by Rabindranath Tagore before, save few things that I had come accross in the course syllabus. I feel that I have never read a more beautiful poetry. Every time I read it, I can read a poem in a totlly new sense. Every time, it has a different meaning. Most of the poems are spiritual or romantic. Even the romantic poems are written in a very spiritual way. I would just say that I am simply amazed by the poetic strength of this man.
The book has an introduction by Yeats. In that Yeats says that he keeps a copy of Gitanjali with him and reads it daily. I think even I am gonna do the same. Even if u read 2-3 poems, you somehow feel enlightened and at peace. Wonderful and amazing poetry!

Monsoons here!

yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.......sooooo happpy! Good that even this time I dint miss getting drenched in the first rains!

Another day in paradise....

feels great to be back home. This vacation is totally different from the previous one. In Jan when I had come back home, there was so much attension and too many different things goin around. It was really hectic and I barely got any time to cool my heels.
This time its different. I feel as if I am back to my normal life. Simply chilling out nowadays. Started my reading again. I hv barely read anything in last 2 yrs. I cant bliv that! I was a voracious reader once upon a time. And for last 2 yrs, my extra curricular reading was only the news paper! Reading Ayn Rand now.
I think I am gonna cherish this 1 month like anything. Looks like everything is falling into place. Getting my stuff done on time. getting back into my regular habits that I had 2 yrs ago. getting more desciplined. Being myself again! feels great.
I have promised myself to do few things. I just hope that I keep those promises as I hv kept others.

For Kanchan.....

A friend who is far away is sometimes much nearer than one who is at hand. Is not the mountain far more awe-inspiring and more clearly visible to one passing through the valley than to those who inhabit the mountain?
Kahlil Gibran

Madnessssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had an amaaaaaaaaaaaaaazing birthday party last week. Should have had written about it on my b'day...but anyways, der aaye durust aye!
As usual I was all hyper about my birthday for 2 weeks or so. I know I would be same even on my 50th birthday!
Everyone came at around 12 and smeared me with cake. I dont know why I took efforts of cleaning myself up coz immediately afetr coming out karthik poured lotsa beer on me. It was the first booze party in the grp. Wildest party ever! Even last year we had a terrific party on my b'day. Of course my roomies and my CS gang was there. Partied till 6 am and not to mention the drive till Niagara at 4 am! Missed Apoo like anything :(
My roomies r buyin me an ipod!!! :D

Beautiful....

Found this online.....

"Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die."

poem2

I sit in my deep maroon colored car

The one I have totally fallen for

The engine comes to life

The steering start turning

Somebody once told me to drive slowly

Slowly so that you enjoy the ride more.

I remind myself of the words again

And I take my foot off.

It’s a rough and dry road

But I like the way it hits me.

As always, the start is bouncy

But yea, that’s the pleasure of the ride!

My velvety maroon car

Its still cruising on the rough road

I keep going, whistling

The road seems to going on and on

Suddenly I realize,

My car has taken me to the clouds

the clouds are wine colored just as my car

I seem to let go of everything

And drown in them.

Euphoric, I wanna swim in those rich clouds

I know the buzz of the ride is getting in my head

Before I realize, the rides over

The clouds are gone

But I won’t worry,

Coz I know I would put in the keys again!

Desert Rain

I saw the little girl sitting on the sidewalk

Tired and cheeks stained

I knew the reason

“are you tired my little girl?

“yes, I am ….I did not want to be here.

This is not what I thought it would be.”

“I brought you where u always wanted to be”

“now I want to go back…back again

Back to the innocent world.

It was warm and rosy

But I was curious

Was curious about this.

I was excited when you brought me here

But this is not what I was expecting it would be

Its too cruel.

How come those dreams are still dreams?

Or was it just a mirage?”

“ Oh! Mirage u say , my girl?

It is a mirage, but we had fun running behind it, dint we?

See those people are still running…”

“But I am tired, tired of this running

But I know I can’t ever go back

Can not go back to that sunshine

Can not go back to the warm womb”

I sit there on the sidewalk beside her,

My shoulders down

Deep inside, I know I am tired too

“I can take you back, may be”

But I know I am not complete without her.

She knows that too…

She ponderes and smiles

She kisses me on my cheek and says

“I wont leave you alone..

I wont go back and make you run thru the desert by urself

I know you cant make the mirage a reality sans me

Who is gonna bring smiles on ur face

And stars in your eyes?”

I look at her

I know I am not complete without her.

She knows that too…

And there we go, with our eyes at the mirage!

Spring Break!

Well yesterday the school started again. It was a pretty cool spring break though. Went for the DC trip with my kool n 'Jhakaaaas' grp.
It was a well planned trip. Booked a caravan as we were 8 of us. Ketan and Amol had to drive us thru the almost 9 hrs drive. Full time music and dance made that 9 hrs drive really short.
Stayed at Amol's cosins place. Saturday we went to Luray caverns to see the Stalactites and Stalagmites. The place is really beautiful. The skyline drive was pretty too. Saturday night we went for clubbing.
Sunday was hectic as we did 'DC Darshan'. The museums r amazing and so are the monumnets. White house was OK. Came back home really late and thn hogged down sm Thai food.
Then it was the time to return back! Started very early in the morning with Amol(!) at the wheel.

It was one of the most memorable trips I hv ever had. And mostly the last trip as the whole grp together. As most of us are on the verge of graduation, we dont know whn we would get together like this. Will miss my second family for sure.....

Here goes 1 for today:

Q: Why cant a mute cat walk?

A: A mute cat cant mew.
Hence, μ = 0
μ is the coefficient of friction.
as friction is 0,movement i s 0!
so the cat cant walk!!!!!

and....a reply frm Manas, worth posting! here it goes...


Wrong. Depends on if the cat is currently walking or only
sitting. ;-) Because according to Newton's First Law, "every body
continues in its state of rest or uniform motion in a straight line
unless acted upon by an external unbalanced force." So if there is
zero friction, the cat will continue walking across the globe until
someone goes out and stops it (and someone better do!)

Then again, if the cat is Schrodinger's Cat, it might be walking
*and* not walking at the same time.

But of course, what fun are geek jokes if a geekier geek doesn't try
to dissect it to shreds? :-) Thank you for wasting two minutes of my
life.

Roobaroo.....roshni se

Oh wow! I feel so nice today! So nice that I finally remembered that I have a blog!
Last week in particular wasnt very good...the later part of it rather. Had a midterm...studied veryyy nicely. The midterm was OK but felt nice about the way I studies.
I got totally bogged down by few things in the later part of the last week. Felt very weak and confused as if I was looking at everything without my specs!
Good that I have come out of everything. I always knew I would. I know how strong I am and now it feels so good to come back :)
I am even becoming more desciplined. Getting all work done nicely as decided. Feeling so sure about myself ! Its one of those days when u know that nothing can ever go wrong with you and every step u take will lead u to your goal for sure.
Seems like I hv put my specs back on! hehehe :)

Let It Snow...

Finally its snowing in Buffalo! When I came back from my India Trip, I was expecting to see the usual snowland as my plane landed. But it was just green everywhere....
But now thankfully its snowing. Its beautifully white everywhere.Everyone calls me crazy coz I like snow. But the white sidewalks and plain white backyards look so beautiful! I just love the way the snow 'sits' on the top of the bushes. the best sight to watch is whn its snowing and the sun is out! The sparkling snowflecks flowing around is the best thing to watch!
I always wanted to visit Moscow when I was a kid. I used to read all these Russian kids' storybooks. I loved the description of the winters. I used to think that Russia is the only place where it snows and so it must be the most beautiful country in the world! Heheh, I was 4-5 yrs old then!
But now I am in Buffalo and I get to see the beauty of the snow that I wanted to see as a kid. Looking forward to a snowfight now.....

Man! totaaaaaaaaalllly in love with my Pepe. Perfect fitting.
ummm....I guess I say this for all my jeans :O
heheh

Hmmm...

I would thank god for making me what I am .......

Fun Monday!

Had lotsa fun on Monday. We had a plan to meet up with the CKP gang. Wasnt doing anythign productive at home so decided to go for '15th Park Avenue' with Manas and G1.
Really good movie. Top class acting by everyone. Aparna Sen is a a really good director. Konkona Sen is just too good in the role of the schizophrenic. Disturbing movie.
The fun part abt the movie was the theater!'Red Lounge' thing at Infiniti Mall. Nice Lazyboy chairs...Really nice experience to watch the movie on the recliner.
Three of us roamed the mall and shopped for two and half hrs till the rest of the gang came. Finally at 8:45pm Anup, Madz, Sush and Nikhil came. Sad that Amit could not make it.
Had a nice dinner at salt n pepper. came home at almost 1:30 am!
I hv so much fun with these ppl. Feels nice to get good friends so unexpectedly! every time I chat with these ppl, I hv good time. Manas and Sushant hv the same SOH...and others at least appreciate it! The whole time we were just laughing. Might meet up again else till next time....

Hum To Gaye Des Re........

Bloggin after a long time....was too busy having fun!
It was such a great feeling to see my family on the airport...I met the whole Mulund gang after one and half years! Had met Amit when he was inUS though.
The feeling of getting pampered is just too awesome.Back to the security blanket. Just feels like hugging these three ppl and never lettin go....